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sploosh543I've been re-reading lb-lee's Madgic (great stuff btw, go read it) and. Oh lord the stuff on god parasitism makes things make...a bit too much sense.
For context: we're ex-catholic and very struggling with catholic guilt. We've also been digging up headspace events from the catholic school days (mostly revolving around me and Stornn, who is gonna be important here).
Stornn was one of the first headmates to show up. He also was a guardian angel assigned to me by God (big air quotes here because tbh I don't know if it's God God or. something else.). His job back then was to keep me on track with being holy and good and protecting me.
The problem was he did his protecting job too well, realized this entire thing was bullshit, and "died" (again big air quotes, it's...complicated) protecting me. The good news is he got better after...about a decade? He's completely independent of his old god now but he stays with us cause "where else would I go lol". The bad news is we're still finding these...branches of the god's influence in our headspace, growing like a very, very stubborn weed outbreak.
...I mean, on some level we know it's probably just some weird metaphor our brain is using to manage our recovery, but if I've learned anything it's that sometimes you just gotta roll with what the brain's giving you. And sometimes it gives you god parasite remnants you need to flush out at some point (we're working on it).
...maybe I should write my own book about it if I get the motivation lol.
For context: we're ex-catholic and very struggling with catholic guilt. We've also been digging up headspace events from the catholic school days (mostly revolving around me and Stornn, who is gonna be important here).
Stornn was one of the first headmates to show up. He also was a guardian angel assigned to me by God (big air quotes here because tbh I don't know if it's God God or. something else.). His job back then was to keep me on track with being holy and good and protecting me.
The problem was he did his protecting job too well, realized this entire thing was bullshit, and "died" (again big air quotes, it's...complicated) protecting me. The good news is he got better after...about a decade? He's completely independent of his old god now but he stays with us cause "where else would I go lol". The bad news is we're still finding these...branches of the god's influence in our headspace, growing like a very, very stubborn weed outbreak.
...I mean, on some level we know it's probably just some weird metaphor our brain is using to manage our recovery, but if I've learned anything it's that sometimes you just gotta roll with what the brain's giving you. And sometimes it gives you god parasite remnants you need to flush out at some point (we're working on it).
...maybe I should write my own book about it if I get the motivation lol.
